Archive for September 18, 2015

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The Very First Frenemy

BH I sometimes think about how much younger I would be if I could regain all the time I spent thinking certain thoughts, thoughts I assumed were truly mine, thoughts I now understand I should have ignored.  But, that’s along the same lines as contemplating which college I would have gotten into had I only known the piece of test-taking advice that says, when in doubt you should go with your first answer. Oh well. Too much thinking was always a...

Here Comes that Awe-ful Feeling

B”H I’m not a psychic, but I can predict with some certainty that this is going to happen to me: I am going to go to shul on Yom Kippur, look in my Machzor prayer book, and see my smorgasbord of sins clearly before me. I will feel slightly ashamed to be in this position, sitting before G-d, feeling like I’ve failed Him. Again. I will tell myself that I have made some improvements, “grown up” as they say, in...

Three Good Things I Learned about G-d

BH “Don’t worry, I’m fine,” I answer with the knowing smile of a veteran mother. This is my response to almost everyone who walks into our house these days and comments on how quiet it is. If I weren’t “fine,” I would somehow allow myself to be sad that our youngest two children have simultaneously “left the nest,” and I refuse to allow that. Maybe it’s because I was blessed to have children in what was considered an “advanced maternal...